Forbearance

am i really losing my patience? this virtue that i always thought i have embedded within me..a trait of my personality which hasn't really failed me up to this far...and now it seems that it is getting me into all sorts of issues, inner demons taking its toll on me?...am i really wearing thin or am i driven so? questions flood my mind once again..all sorts of crazy questions to which the answers i don't wish to hear, it might just stir more negative emotions...no matter how much i try it never seems enough...like an never ending avalanche crashing down...